chapter 8 ~ Being weird isn't actually bad

hey guys!! sorry i haven't been able to write more often, i'm back to school. Yeah like for real!! I tottaly rejected that diploma in pharmacy offer for school. Yup I know that's insane, but have you ever had that feeling where you are being torn apart in your own body.

your mind the logic part tells you something and your heart guides you the other way. well yeah, i was in that position when i had to make this decision : stay in school or dip in Pharmacy.And well i chose school 1 and half year more hell. I'm sorry guys, but school was not a fun experience for me. I been through alot of pain and isolation there untill i found my bestfriends and to tell you the truth non of my friends are in the same state as I am.

Some went matriculation and the others universities, and here i am alone in school.It sucks cause my new school is Boys school excluding the seniors which is my form. Well some of you would squeal at teh thought of being surrounded by male population  or getting the chance to stare at a few washboard abs. But for me.. nah.. i'm awkward around the opposite gender and the only time THEY even look at me is to tease me.SO yeah not really a great history with them. Plus i never had a boyfriend so it will definately be too weird and out of place for me to even be in that school.But  my heart leaned on this ... maybe because i knew deep down i couldn't afford the Pharmacy course.It was way too expensive for my family.



Or maybe i wanted to .. no needed to go through highschool again.Maybe because they offered English literature as on of the subjects. My passion has always been literature even now i  am writing a book, about a how two bestfriends fell inlove with each other maybe. maybe deep down my heart knows what i need.

But the struggle is just too much, my class is full of chatter boxes, even when the teacher is at the front they still talk untill they teacher gets fed up and stop teaching leaving  a few students like me to just stare in confusion and shock. And also going through teasing from the boys for being ugly and fat. And getting weird stares from girls my form because i don't gossip about boys or even talk to them. I rather write or dream.Than to be wasting time talking about boys or make up.

I know i'm weird but i'm trying to prove to everyone that being weird is ok.

                                                                        

                      

     

For better or for worse
and for the lack of better words.
i end my speech here.

                     ~SITA