Chapter 6 ~ Bleeding Love

dear .......,
everyday now days, we talk to each other more. i like that allot, it makes me feel wanted and close to you. I don't mind being your best friend, if that's the closest I'll ever be to you, I'll take it. i like you allot, i don't dare to say "i love you " anymore

why u ask??
by..
 the way u talk about her
the way u act as if it doesn't hurt you
the way u forgive her even if it kills u abit
the way u put her before anyone else
the way u take notice of her..

after all that, i couldn't say i love you, its not right. so with all my heart, my love and my care for u, i am going to stop.

no.. i can't stop loving u. that's impossible, but i can stop hoping. i can start hating you. at least when i hate you, my love for u might fade away.but then you are making it impossible for me to do that too..

why do u care for me?
why do u talk to me?
why do tell me stuff?
why do u remember things i use to say?
why do u treat me nicely?
why?! why?!

10 things i hate and love about you

 1.  your caring side

      2. your sense of humor

     3.you care free attitude

 4.our similar traits

 5. our ever flowing fluent conversations

 6. your smile

 7. your crazy logic

 8. your protectiveness over me
 9. your respect towards woman
10. just yourself.

But I realised, that you never did have feelings for me nor did you think of me as even your friend. I was just a tool to close the gap of your loneliness. But you lead me on and left me to die. But still, I couldn't fight the urge to hate you. But i no longer love you either. So Good bye my friend, I wish you the best but do listen to the radio much more now OK? because I'm going to tell Adele about this. She's going to sing it in your face! 

So that you will know, how much pain. you caused me.

                                                      

for better and for worse

and for the lack of better words

i end my speech right here

Sita